Your thoughts are laws. Stay conscious.

If you say you're anxious, you are. If you say you're calm, you also are. If you say you're scared, you will be, and if you say you're confident, it will grow inside of you as if by magic. If you say you're impulsive, you'll go wreck yourself, if you say you're in control, you will possess self command. When you say you can't be alone, you'll suffer from solitude, but if you say the presence within you is your best companion, you will always feel fulfilled.

Watch your thoughts, they are commands, they are the script of your reality. I just realized that. I am what I want to be. I can't control anything in this world except that which lives in my mind, and therefore I shall feel what I feel and live what I live and see what I see. I just realized this while writing in my diary tonight, and am ready to go to sleep. Because i don't even suffer of insomnia, I sleep like a baby if I want to, when I want to and where I want to. Good night.

-Priscila P.

Loneliness... or not?

December 1st, 2012, Saturday night. I decide to stay in, and insomnia kicks in....normal.
I had the chance to get out of this place and mingle, but I chose not to. I feel lonely, but am I?

I'm always surrounded by people, and I could be so more often if I chose to, but it's not always the best option. At least not for me. Sometimes I wonder if the loneliness I feel is bestowed upon me by myself... I know it is.

Is it a matter, instead, of priorities? What do I really want out of life, out of this year, this moment? And therefore, how is what and who's out there going to benefit or keep me from reaching my goals? If I give myself to chance and go too much with the flow, will I let them slip through my fingers?

Where is prince charming? Can he come to my emotional rescue? !!! Sounds silly, but i actually mean it. And am I even ready for any sort of prince whomever? I guess you never know when it comes to matters of love, real love. Don't go looking for it.. that thing called lovey dovey's just supposed to come knocking on your door, or so I believe. When you least expect it, people say....

So remain focused and let life unfold as it should.... Or is it this city? Miami, oh crazy, beautiful, warm and obnoxious Miami? I don't think it's the city either, even though temptation could be one the strongest adjectives I can think of for this zip code, so how do you find stability where there is so much temptation to lose yourself into oblivion?

Surround yourself with the right crowd, they say. Be selective. Choose your relationships wisely. Tell me who you hang out with and I'll tell you who you are. Tell me who you LOVE and I'll tell you who you are. It is from these interactions that most of your productivity can remain, strive or plain vanish.

Loneliness? Selectiveness? Patience.... I enjoy the warmth that comes from a deep conversation, the understanding and receptivity. We all do, we all go out looking for that in the end, anyway. But it's when you look for it in the wrong places that life can become empty or confusing.

I think I want to start yoga classes or something. Typical Pisces, swerving from one subject to another without much thought. I think that what's really best for me at the moment is to just plain go to sleep....

Welcome December 2012 :)

Bonne Nuit

- Priscila -